"I'm so torn, I can't even cry. This blog has become my go-to cathartic experience.
For a lil' while now, I've been crushing on this dude. Thing with me is that I crush on people that express interest in me first. So it was a reciprocated thang.
In my little mind, I thought I was his 'it', you know, the sweetest little thing. Imagine the HORROR when I discovered this dawg sh#t(Jodi NO! get it together) was just a player, filling the minds of vulnerable girls with no ends of garbage. My instincts had warned me. I just refused to listen.
I feel busted, broken, shattered, just out of it! I can't even focus. This nauseating feeling has swept over my soul. When did I become Leah? #biblical reference
Man I was played big time. Can't even relate the details. JEEZ!
I just wanted to put this in writing. It has no resolution yet.
Good thing is, it was only a crush. Nothing more. Lord I thank you that you brought it to my attention. Bugger doesn't yet know that I know. Hmph! Well! Life goes on and so must I.
I am your brokenhearted Jodi :-("
A week later, I'm thankful for the experience. It inspired a song I intend on 'putting out there', it helped shape my perspective on emotional vulnerability-propelling me to a higher sense of caution, responsibility and accountability to myself; my self-worth and value have been restored, best of all, I've reconnected with a God whose friendship is enduring-nothing I do or say will turn Him off of me, cuz His love is unconditional-that's comforting; it builds confidence and trust and I'm better off for this experience.
I'm no longer angry, I've found my peace.
Look out for the song-it's coming soon.